I seriously feel like all I do is feed Amaya. That three hours comes around oh so quickly.
Today I had to feed her on the side of a bridge and then later pull over on the side of the road. Planning your day around your baby’s feeds can be difficult, well, for me anyway. I have always had trouble when it comes to time management. I remember when I used to take my time getting ready to go anywhere, but now I am in a race against the clock to ensure that we reach our destination before Amaya’s next feed…or I have to drown out her screams with Justin Bieber. Plus her cry breaks my heart and makes it difficult to concentrate. So my hair is constantly in a messy bun (not even one that looks good), I have lost count of the amount of days that I have gone make up free and I often get to around lunchtime and realise that I am yet to eat breakfast. Or sometimes even drink water (!!!!) – anyone that knows me, knows that I am a massive water drinker.
So tonight I have made a decision to get my shit together. My routine is not working (sleeping in wastes so much time, and I don’t even have an excuse for it – Amaya sleeps through). So I am going to try my hardest to begin my day with a walk (of course I make this decision when it is so freaking hot at like 6am!) and have breakfast when I get home. I am going to try and have a conversation (with an adult, preferably one of my friends) that is of substance and where I feel like I have grown and benefited from this connection. I am going to rid my life of shit people, because I simply do not have the energy or time for that stuff anymore. I am going to do stuff to enrich my life, that brings happiness my way and that help me to grow so I can be the best version of myself for my little family.
I need to take care of myself, not only so I can be the best Mum I can be, but because I freaking matter too. Often, when we have little people in our lives, we tend to forget about ourselves. As a mother, I think that it is natural to put your children first, but we must remember that we come in at a close second.
So now that you have finished reading this, go have a bath or a glass of wine! You deserve it!
Edit: You don’t have to be Mum to deserve such self-care! It is essential for all!
Stay fabulous! Xx